Hi (:
My name is Gab and I rock.
sixteen candles on the 17th December '10. I ♥ Ballet, badminton, and Shopping.

you know you love me
xoxo


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swt =.=" at 11:54 AM

*before continue reading, i need to let u know that my dad is a add math teacher =)

me : dad, how to do this mod maths question?

dad : [reads through the question for a very long time]

me : dad, do u know how to do mod maths??

dad : that is a very lame question.

xD

im just bored. forgive my lameness. LOL.

~Gab



slap me. at 10:45 AM

right now , i wish that i was just a kid.

a kid who doesnt know how to worry, doesnt NEED to worry, and doesnt WANT to worry. but it's impossible. afterall, everyone needs to grow up; face challenges, go through ups and downs. this is how we learn. yes, i understand tat. and for people who know me well, its freaking obvious that im tired. really. tired. i wanna stop learning. i wanna stop being good in everything. but something, is just pushing me. harder. and harder. it could be jn, it could just be me, i dont really know. of course, learning it the hard way is pretty effective. and to me too. that, i admit. but these people dont realise something : that i AM human. we all are. so why must u be so unreasonable? i know u want me to excel, but dont u think u're over doing it? today, i was absent from school. yet, last night, i still have to keep thinking : what will happen if i dont go to school? who will take over my place during duty? will they do a good job? how am i goin to hand in my hmwk? will she be mad if i dont go to school?

see, just because for ONE DAY, i need to answer all these questions. and no one can help me, because only i, will know the answers. and i'm tired. of all these. sometimes i think im just really selfish, i just wan everything : ballet, badminton, prefect... i just dont wanna let go. because they're all part of my life. i dont need people to motivate me, to inspire me, to keep moving on. to be strong. but when i'm trying to move on, someone tells me : " u everyday only like to go out with friends, so free. " that, was what hurt me. that, was what made me shed tears. another person tells me : " gabrina, u look so happy everyday, like, no worries. " yeah, LOOK. if i dont, what will people think of me? that im so pityful? that i need a break? no. they'll just think how pathetic i am , giving up so easily. even my mom doesnt understand me. i told her, that i need to go for assisting during friday. she said she cant fetch. and after tat, she just said : " why dont u just quit assisting, so much homework. " this is a real life example. im not saying she's wrong, but she just dont get it, that when i dance. i forget about everything. it's like, my way to relax, before getting back to all my hmwk and activities. and yet, she wans me to stop. isn't it asking me to get more stressed up?

perhaps nobody understands what i wrote here, i just wanna express my feelings, how i feel. and now, i cant only depend on myself to move on anymore. i need someone out thr, to just tell me:

Gabrina, u can do it.



at 6:58 PM

picturess coming up ! :D

found my camera. it was with my dad all this while -.-

~Gab <3


at 1:56 PM

what a small world.

zzz.

in one day, i saw two of my kl frens.

and both are badminton frens :

kevin and aik quan.

and at the same place.

wth???

weird-.-

lol, anyways, my blog is under construction now =) thanks to my dear cousin ! :D

PS ; valentines day suck big time ! percy jackson tmr. woohoo !

~Gab <3


ah, the holidays. at 10:09 PM

hey ppl ! im back (: bet u guys missed me rite?x) (im just talking to my blog, btw. because i know no one except mel and myn and suzy reads my blog.xD )

its been like a week since i've blogged =x explains how busy i was am. hmm , i wanna blog abit about what happened last week. since it was quite a erm.... dramatic week.

-debate lost. (whooooooh.)
-since quiz lost. (stupid smart assessss )
-duty suck hell lot. (getting used to it)
-homeworkS are killing me. (thanks to a bunch of good teachers we have )
-i gained weight =/

things that cheered me up (:
-hui , thanks for ur oh-so-wonderful-and-creative-card :D (and yes, i DID smile when i opened it)
-zhong yuen and tim's sense of humour made me forget about homework. (temporarily)
-mel's helpfullness in helping me copy physics prac :D
-my ankle has fully recovered !
-i went back to ballet class, not watching ; but dancing (:
-angpau's are filling up my bag ! >.<
-my crazy cousins made me laugh like i've never did since the beginning of the year.


and lastly;

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!!

~Gab <3



at 7:12 PM

im a loser.

tim , mel ; i apologised for the lousy performance today.

will try harder tomorrow (:



it's breaking my heart



~Gab



luck just isn't on my side. at 7:59 PM

-my sore throat just doesn't seem to go away.
-another bad. duty day.
-debate postponed to thursday. fuck that .
-when i needed you, you weren't there.

i want to do better, but how can i? when all u do is scold. yes, WE have big responsibilities, then what about you? you're suppose to teach us. and all u do is scold. it's not that i hate what i'm doing, it's because YOU made me hate it.

~Gab



one more day. at 9:08 PM

and i can sleep all i wan (:

banana's unite! x)

~Gab <3